At 18 (almost 19 if I say so myself) it sounds weird and probably naive to have learned some life lessons. When I was younger I never thought that entering college would make me want to be closer to my faith and community, but as I’ve started this journey I’ve met some amazing people that have guided me and I’ve learned some lessons I hope to never forget.
Just like maybe you have too, I’ve had some let downs in life. Whether it be getting rejected from an internship I had hoped to have gotten, or wondering what life would’ve been had I been somewhere else or gotten what I wanted, I’ve always found myself wondering why some things simply weren’t written for me even when I wanted them to be so badly. I used to wonder what sin I had committed that made me undeserving of all the opportunities I wanted and I would get angry not just at myself, but Allah. I would feel like quitting and I’d think: what’s the point of asking Him for things if He won’t give them to me anyways?
But one day, casually strolling through twitter I saw something:
“Allah makes the impossible, possible.”
That’s when everything changed:
I realized that possibility and impossibility are human limitations. Allah doesn’t have anything impossible or possible, because nothing would be possible without him. Who am I to say that something is impossible, or to know whats best for me in the long run? Who am I to know the plan the Allah has created for each and every one of us? Who am I to think that Allah can’t give me what I think is impossible?
I’ve learned how to change the narrative, and find solace in the unknown. I’ve learned that everything happens for a reason and believe in Allah’s love for his creation. I know Allah only wants the best for me not just in this life but in the hereafter. Instead of focusing on the things I don’t have, I’ve realized that the future holds so many things I don’t know yet, or things I never would have thought before and can’t imagine a life without.
While its easier said than done, subhanAllah I’ve seen such a difference in my life. At one point I almost feel as if I saw more blessings after changing my mindset. Slowly things started to make sense. I never would’ve been the person I am today nor met the people who’ve made such an impact on my life to shape me to who I am today, had it not all been part of Allah’s plan. Those setbacks and “missed” opportunities ended up paving the way for different opportunities that have lead me to have the life I have today.
Not everything that happens is solely for the benefit of this world. Often times I’ve gotten so caught on up this life and wanting the best while I’m here, that I forget that this life is not the only one. In fact, this life is merely a drop in the ocean to the rest of eternity. The trials we face in this life may seem like a punishment and we wonder why we’re facing such difficulties, but we forget the promises Allah has made us if we persevere through each hardship with patience and faith. If anything, these tests in life are means to humble ourselves, and get closer to our Creator.
I’m not going to lie, trying to let go and just keep faith is hard. There are moments when I look at the situation and a part of me slowly starts to want to slip back to pessimism and giving up, but I try to remember that trusting Allah not only gives me hope to make my impossible possible, but in the process I am getting closer to Him.
SubhanAllah, and alhamdulillah for the life we were blessed to live.